Own story

Own story

By admin 0 Comment 2019-03-15

Human life is a public figure by a number of factors and uncertainties chance constituted, due to the restrictions and the impact of various conditions, he became what it is today’s.Hungry child, and later has been living a life bar tight, so I became a casually dressed, slovenly person.In my eyes, the clothes do not break is not bad will never go out of style, you can still be worn.Just transferred to authorities in those years, often dressed in outdated military has been a marked dry tunic or dress to go to work, or feet wearing shoes Jiefang Xie.Such gusto and authority of elegant style and modern outfit suits colleagues dressed very incongruity, even as for misfits.With the contempt of the ingredients already in the eyes of others, but they themselves are unaware.    Before work, his wife said, changed clothes before you go.Hey I smile, we ordinary people, the bulk of a soldier, not out of big occasions, does not participate in foreign affairs activities, nor on the lens or something, wear does not matter.What is no longer strong wife said, because she knew, even for really enough and others could get no comparable suit and tie, even a guest to wear out one pair of decent shoes are not.Not because I am old ideas, do not want to dress well, he refused beautiful, but it is also natural conditions make it.    One thing that changed my ideas.  That day back home, folks came forward and said: “See you on TV!”” I see you on TV!”I’m at a loss:” Really?”I think from different angles, take a great effort for him to think of it.It turned out to be the last few days of mobilization meeting was recorded learning phase, into the lens, on the news.  Later, there are one or two things on the news.Encounter an old school 30 years ago, he met his first words I saw on TV.  He never thought that he was a public figure, actually there are so many people looking at me!    In the years leading organs work, naturally sought power by riding the time, not least to join the leadership, heighten the atmosphere of opportunity.So a year on the inside there is always a chance that one or two children’s television news show his face.On a TV, you do not know someone, perhaps many people have to know you are looking at you, supervise you, you become a public figure.    Since it is a public figure from, work in leading the side, you can not be too cheap to be too shabby, and conversation have to pay attention to image, wearing a dress with the children on the crowd, to keep up with the times, as if if outdated relics in general, do not say you intend to sell socialism depends, at least Daya organ injury.Do not you see, that is not clerical leadership around dressed in suits and ties.Once work with leading into the city, the hotel entrance clear public disheveled enter the room, almost blocked the guard at the door.    I had to buy a suit and shoes.Personal money does not matter, the image of something big agencies.No money, struggling.Wear brand-name leaders, who have money to buy high-end, we buy fakes, can “pleasing” on the line, spend two dollars for a piece of leather belt, took three years, but also could have been used, but that the above pattern eagle had long since rusted.Throw away, they are public figures, should pay attention to image.So to spend 10 yuan to buy a fake “crocodile” tied.Note that the image needs to spend more, in others, buy a designer clothes spent a few thousand dollars or even a million perhaps negligible, that we can be astronomical, even tens of dollars to spend also need to bite the bullet of.Gone up, a lot of things had to others as a reference, entertainment, donations, consumer intensely upon you stretched.    You elevate himself into a public figure, so he supervised some more, some more self-discipline, some more responsibility.Interaction with others, conversation, image packaging, can not be confused with ordinary people, although he would also like ordinary people than the average.    Bus, met sick and elderly, your first seat; streets to buy food, you can not weigh two pounds aside bargain, showing mean embarrassed like; fundraiser, love and dedication, you have to show a positive generous appearance.For people to do things, to be graceful, not because of petty and drill regardless of the end, but it can not do selfish things defecate hematuria pus.Met falls among the elderly, people might not like to see the same, but you have approached the elderly Chanqi.Encounter dray pulled briquettes send migrant workers are struggling to climb, you have to help him onto a.All this, not for anything else, just as you are a public figure.    Others do a public figure, a lot of advantages; you do is devote a lot of public figures.In fact, do not brag himself as a public figure is the same, but, as a public figure, which is higher ethical standards Bale.    Market shrink a person has his own market.In the circle of his life in some places, some people, willing to accept him; he is in the middle, it is very easy to integrate with you.Similar thought, empathy, do not have to fortification each other; there is more of a common language, to get along with each other, harmony, spring fills the air, fun tata.Someone let him listen to McCain, McCain was willing to listen to him.This is his market.    Just transferred to authorities in those years, the self-inductance broad market, strong popularity, with more understanding and sincere colleagues; but also cultivate the market, market development, market expansion.Then the main source of cadres, one is education, from teachers transferred in; the second is military cadres.Two kinds of experience, I have both, so whether it is from the ranks, or teach Mr. background, I can find a common language with them, too many entry points, so the entire institution, regardless of which office, is very easy to find your own market, the so-called duck to water, its capability.    At that time, we work in a unit, there is nothing to hide, how transferred authority, wife or husband in which the unit to work, in which the teenage children to school, home where, like, big or small, everyone Seiji Chu, all sun sun.Trivia is a frequent topic.Which food stores some white flour, which briquettes briquettes fire-resistant plants, what brand of anti-mosquito insecticide effect, etc., we share each other’s life experiences.I heard there Wenxian Mengzhou carrots and green onions cheap, everyone chipped in to send people back to buy a car, a few hours drive away, in the night at the food office building.In many ways, we have a common language, because it is very concerned about a few cents difference.    There is a colleague Liu comrades, military man, who is enthusiastic, happy to provide live information for everyone, willing to work for everyone.There Lao Du, Lao Fan, Zhang, etc., they care about me, I like to listen to crap Luankan.They are my basic market.Other office, neighbors neighborhood, every corner of society, the same can find their own market.    Now, markets withering, lost.Office workers, have long hung his head beard, knowledge of aging, outdated concepts, lack of information, between younger colleagues and there is a generation gap, almost no common language, Yilaomailao, to no avail.Family gossip, trivia, who want to hear!And the more people some privacy, some more strange, multi-layer diaphragm.Today’s society, life is both varied and complex human relations, should not know, do not know, should not ask Needless to ask, not harm anyone there, defenses can not do without.Very common topic on life, family, children’s education, etc., also have become a secret.The price issue was originally a hot topic of general interest, but when you mention the price of eggs, briquettes prices, and people are keen to discuss family card, smooth listening card which is more affordable, people will inevitably feel introspective, disdain a care.Because people would have no coal balls, I do not care what is cheap is not cheap.I said, what card cheap?The card can be reimbursed cheap calls.Even if people can not be reimbursed, and that very little of a few dollars, tens of dollars of spending bill the difference really is not worth mentioning.    Research will understand everything must be obtained.People often on topics relevant to their interests and well-known things most interested and most likely to interact.To develop the market, eliminating the generation gap, we have to match up.Try it, we also said that Real Madrid, says Ronaldo, said the Rockets and Lakers, Kobe Bryant and James, still ineffective.Although these topics can not stop shrinking market, but in public, talking about this kind of topic is undoubtedly the best choice, just say, “Ha ha ha today weather,” as both a closer relationship with each other, set up near, but also active in the atmosphere, most notably, never hurt anyone, has played evasive effect.This is the kind of wisdom the people.    The more simple and primitive thing, more durable, more high-tech stuff more prone to failure.The relationship between man, the worse the conditions, the more sincere and reliable, the better the conditions of the more vulnerable.I thought I advocate the “principal Fuchu” come.    I am glad he’s shrinking market, because it reflects the progress of society; however, more is laugh at ourselves not with the times, the times are far left behind in the.    How much regret that an elderly friend summed up his most of his life as “worthy of regret there,” I often apply this in summing up his words.    Yes, there is worthy of regret.The so-called well-deserved, that man attitude of life, honesty, worthy of the day, without the people ashamed.Need motherland and the people that I volunteer, is my life project, decades of life path, is well documented.That enlisted at the age of 18, youth and passionate dedication to the cause of national defense.Reopening, stand up and make their country selection.After graduating from college, work three feet of the podium, Lee verdant machine, and later transferred to the authority as a clerk, when editing, silent for 20 years, temples dyed cream, vision presbyopia.Along the way, worthy of regret.    Although well-deserved, but regret.Subjective well-deserved, there is regret objective, but a lot of regret, how many regrets in their hearts.  Big regret is that Xu Deheng summary “determined to serve the country, but no achievement” and Hegel said, “Only a life dedicated to the motherland.”Great regret is not easy to eliminate, capacity constraints are difficult to resolve, so it does not feel too bad; but little regret, too much, and some of this should not have, and even to overcome and eliminate between gestures.Often, too many small regret is that I really regret.    Contact with people, including colleagues, leaders, friends, wives and children, etc., can get along a little better, a little more harmonious, there is a great pioneering space; say things, but also can put it more nicely some do more Some successful, has great room for development.Leaving a lot of regret, without enumerate.    There are a trivial matter, often think of feel sorry.    I grew fond of literature, the University of Reading is a Chinese major, say that I most like to read, and most important for me is that Lu Xun’s works.Eleven years of the Cultural Revolution, is the companion of my youth when a good read, but suffer no books to read.Fortunately, Lu Xun’s works in principle forbidden to read the list, but it can also read very little.Before the 1970s, I can only be seen in the old high school textbooks sporadically read something; After that, I worked in different places to buy “Letters Miscellaneous Works of Lu Xun”, “且介亭杂文”, “pseudo-free book” and a few this.When retired from the army, a Shanxi Ji comrades sent me a newspaper published by the Corps of Engineers, “Lu Yi Collection”.The Cultural Revolution ended, the publishing industry prosperity, I was admitted to University Department of Chinese, has purchased “The Scream” and “Wandering”, “New Stories”, “Weeds,” “Zhaohuaxishi” and more than 10 in this collection.At that time only a few cents to buy a collection, you can save from 10 yuan per month for living expenses, if want to buy a set of “Complete Works” need tens of dollars, that’s six months living expenses.Six months without food or drink into it?    ”And so grow up say!”When I was in any case where things do not often vowed to” grow up and so to say!”All hope ‘grow up’.But how to grow it and then?Twenty, thirty years before, forty, fifty years old and over, time wasted, empty white-haired Tim.So far no one on the shelf “Complete Works”!The original book was Guimai can not afford, wages decades later still feel thousand Yuan can not afford to book Guimai.Unfortunately shame, really lived in vain.    ”Full Tang” is also, I knew “Full Tang” Tang collection of nearly 50,000, he has vowed to buy a set, so far has not be bought, but also in household expenditure in the budget in recent years and do not plan included.  I hope such a small regret just a coincidence, but I’m a man of sorrow.    Just these small regret to live in mediocrity.Sometimes I think, or, to save these precious cultural heritage along with its owner hardship.In those years, to mobilize move frequently, displaced, of no fixed abode, tormented.There was a time, a small rental house, and low humidity, but to me that a few boxes of books to the temporary residence of a friend, and his living conditions are not good to go than me.A year later, she pulled out from under his bed, I pity those darling, rot, yellow, spider web made, the rat pee.If the “Complete Works” and “Full Tang” in which their fate was doomed.Let lovey, let boil boil baby suffered a disaster, it is the addition of a heavy regret.    One might say that the defense of the dignity of the civilian population, the trivialization of the people, do not have any dignity dignity.Wrong, I say, more usually, the dignity of the easier it stand out; the more unusual, the more and more important and valuable dignity.    Towers too, said: “Life is not a pleasure, but very hard work.”Life is full of variables, chance and risk, to this point was not easy.Even though everything is normal, really we need cordial, trying to defend.Romain Rolland once said: “Life is a round, no breaks, relentless battle.Those who qualify to be called a man who always had to fight with the invisible enemy.”During the war, I have repeatedly facing a severe test of human dignity, life issue as do many times a dog emotion.Fortunately, no matter how difficult the conditions, how dangerous the situation, I have maintained a strong sense of dignity, never give up the bottom line of morality and dignity of man, Wang You can not forget the dignity of the human fear of a partial word write, write, twisted, write small, quite contrary to human dignity have to clank sound!    Two thousand years ago, Confucius spoke of “starve to death is a small matter, disloyal thing” is talking about dignity.Would rather starve to death, they never lose their dignity.    General Ye Ting’s “Song of the Prisoner” is also talking about dignity, knowing that “man out of the door was locked,” can not get out, but “open for dogs to climb out of the hole,” climb out, worry-free life can get free, but prefer not to sit in a hole to climb out from doghole yard, not treachery, betrayal comrades can not sell your soul, and people of faith and people’s dignity.    To defend the dignity comes at a price, and sometimes pay a high price to pay free life.Peace, though not so serious, but it is also sufficient to constitute a threat to a person’s life and the family.    Henan young man working in a Korean enterprises, while wages, the boss asked the workers to kneel.This guy just would not kneel, not the result, unemployed.This character does not kneel commendable, laudable and can enjoy, but do not kneel results heartbreaking.So by no means to defend the dignity like to say a word so easy.    A university graduate, if I remember when he was obedient to the leadership, the leadership of the married daughter, and his middle-aged will be very influential, but he refused the leadership of good intentions, and marries another woman an impoverished students.As a result, over the past many years, mediocre performance, accomplish nothing, also boasted to defend their dignity it.    An ordinary person, Lu Kankan life Ke Ke, difficult, natural and ultimately soft-spoken, humble ask for help.You do not rule out a little better fate, encounters unexpected help, help you through various obstacles, so you again and again saved the day; I can not be so lucky, mixed, thanks to the help of others at the same time, also suffered the taunts and ridicule, sarcasm and supercilious.Ask for things, not only do not matter, but time and time again is pleasing personality insulted, dignity ravaged!When you straighten defend the dignity, we will have to pay a certain price.Life forced me to learn to give up.    Decided the fate, determine the value of position, money, a lot of decisions, the decision that are a matter of course.In order to defend the dignity of pay, the loss can not be measured.People lived under, dwarf-third of the minimum wages of those who work at the same time, life distress., Cause such a result is of course a lot, but in order to defend the dignity it is one of the important reasons.    Eight years ago, rising prices, the children go to school, my wife laid off, family life to make ends meet.Home phone stopped, liquefied petroleum gas stopped, almost even flour can not buy a home, desperation, turn to the leadership, so he arranged for the families to the unit under his authority to go to work, beg for a meal.The leaders graduated from a university in the northeast of the answer I almost passed out!He said, “You look at my job have no family members to help you arrange a job that.”Later a friend offer, the large redeployment from city leaders cravings, let me buy two good smoke to his home a good talk, perhaps in energy; and that he had already arranged for several of the.I thank the kindness of friends, but I made up our mind: I Ching Ming I, soon to retire, not Wanjiebubao.The ancients not handout, today there’s people do not kneel.Ming Li Yu Hang had a saying: “Gentlemen do not apostasy for the poor, is not cheap Chi Yi.”A people starved to death, never again begging the boss.    It took another two years, and back to leadership, asked the same question again.When I beg to leadership on behalf of the family, I did not really know that not only do not believe in tears Moscow, the leadership does not believe in tears.Really, I was already weak knees, really want to kneel.I can think of “dignity” word, actually did not kneel, starved small things, big things dignity.    Later, the county party secretary comrade will peak after learning of my situation, personally intervene to solve practical difficulties I.Will peak secretary is a model of building a harmonious society.If not encounter such a county party secretary, then I may pour a large mold the.    To defend the dignity, as is also the case, also lost so.Since you want to defend the dignity, you pay the price, you just give up a lot.[Editor: leaf]